Danjaruz Negress's Series of Unfortunate Events
Danjaruz Demeanor:
"what the fuck?"
Danjaruz Disclosures, Declarations, and Diatribes:
lotta crazy things happened to me recently.
i wrote a whole blog about it, but of course, explorer shut down before I could even copy and save it.
great.
anyway, my laptop was stolen. I been on vacation from work, so I havent had much computer access lately.
lotta bad things been happening man, to the point when I was like "has someone put a root on me/us?" I mean, things havent been happening just to me directly but also to someone close to me. Moreso to that person than to me, but being close and caring, I am also affected.
Dealing with Dell Indian employees and the NYPD can be a hassle but I'm trying to smooth it out as much as possible. Dell says I have to keep paying for my computer. Not while I'm black. I'm supposed to get some type of compensation from the NYPD when I show them proof that I owned the computer and the proof of worth. They will prolly only give me 60-70% of the total cost, which I will promptly apply to my Dell account. After that, Dell can kiss my ass because I'm not paying the rest. Especially since they are not replacing my computer. Lost my new book I was working on. I was so motivated, now I feel like a blow was dealt to me. I have to work hard now to get back that motivation. I been so depressed. Lost my porn collection, all of my writings, almost 1500 songs [my music....goneeeeeeeee].
A lot of crazy ish has been happening, like supernatural things. Like God speaking to us/me. I wish I knew what He was saying. So many things lined up in so many ways, that I am just concerned that I am missing the message. I feel like the universe is beating us up. But why? We havent done anything wrong. Ok so maybe this is karma? Who knows...
Anyway, trying to move forward, trying to settle down all of the commotion. Had a decent weekend despite some of the "unfortunate events". Mel came to visit, we had a good time. Dinners, karaoke, mini-golf [we whupped yalls asses biznatchesss!!!], went to the mall, did some shopping, took in a movie with Papi to help ease our tensions surrounding the "events".
Had to get rid of yet another "friend" for putting me and people I care about in a very precarious situation that could have had permanent consequences. Been trimming so much dead weight lately. It is funny. My circle gets smaller and smaller and I have absolutely no problem with that. I'd rather have a tiny circle of real people I know I can count on, people who are about things, and most of all people who don't SMELL funny, than to have a broad circle of useless negroes who ain't about shit and smell like it. [I recently realized how many people I hung out with have really putrid smells eminating from their pores, cracks, and crevices. YUCK]
Papi had a great show on Wednesday. Was the first time I got to see him perform live on stage and it made me wanna take him in a corner and let him "work me over" [LOL@ whitney houston]. Yeah, I'm a hornball. Anything that man does makes me wanna hump him. The next one is this coming Sunday. Should be more people there and a different crowd.
*Sigh* I love this man. This weekend he got to meet a couple of my closest friends. This was very important to me, considering we spend more time with his friends than with mine, given the schedules and long-distance locations of my peoples. He received stamps of approval from all who met him. One thing that I love most about him is that he has this positive energy about him that is so engaging that people cannot help but like him upon meeting him. He is funny, smart, a great conversationalist, and has things in common with most people. He knows how to reach people on common grounds and people become drawn to him. One of the people who advocated most for him, without even meeting him, at the time when I was so scared and ready to leave gave him two major thumbs up. He said he didnt feel like an asshole for supporting him lol. Mel likes him. Her friend likes him. People like him.
Most importantly, we just went through a series of unfortunate events together. Relationships are often tested in times of tribulation and we went through them together. We supported each other, loved each other, and were each other's strength. We don't let those outside forces come inside of what we have and break it apart. We face them together. that is what a strong relationship is all about. That is what love is all about.
Ever have that after-tragedy or near-tragic experience sex?
*wink*
"what the fuck?"
Danjaruz Disclosures, Declarations, and Diatribes:
lotta crazy things happened to me recently.
i wrote a whole blog about it, but of course, explorer shut down before I could even copy and save it.
great.
anyway, my laptop was stolen. I been on vacation from work, so I havent had much computer access lately.
lotta bad things been happening man, to the point when I was like "has someone put a root on me/us?" I mean, things havent been happening just to me directly but also to someone close to me. Moreso to that person than to me, but being close and caring, I am also affected.
Dealing with Dell Indian employees and the NYPD can be a hassle but I'm trying to smooth it out as much as possible. Dell says I have to keep paying for my computer. Not while I'm black. I'm supposed to get some type of compensation from the NYPD when I show them proof that I owned the computer and the proof of worth. They will prolly only give me 60-70% of the total cost, which I will promptly apply to my Dell account. After that, Dell can kiss my ass because I'm not paying the rest. Especially since they are not replacing my computer. Lost my new book I was working on. I was so motivated, now I feel like a blow was dealt to me. I have to work hard now to get back that motivation. I been so depressed. Lost my porn collection, all of my writings, almost 1500 songs [my music....goneeeeeeeee].
A lot of crazy ish has been happening, like supernatural things. Like God speaking to us/me. I wish I knew what He was saying. So many things lined up in so many ways, that I am just concerned that I am missing the message. I feel like the universe is beating us up. But why? We havent done anything wrong. Ok so maybe this is karma? Who knows...
Anyway, trying to move forward, trying to settle down all of the commotion. Had a decent weekend despite some of the "unfortunate events". Mel came to visit, we had a good time. Dinners, karaoke, mini-golf [we whupped yalls asses biznatchesss!!!], went to the mall, did some shopping, took in a movie with Papi to help ease our tensions surrounding the "events".
Had to get rid of yet another "friend" for putting me and people I care about in a very precarious situation that could have had permanent consequences. Been trimming so much dead weight lately. It is funny. My circle gets smaller and smaller and I have absolutely no problem with that. I'd rather have a tiny circle of real people I know I can count on, people who are about things, and most of all people who don't SMELL funny, than to have a broad circle of useless negroes who ain't about shit and smell like it. [I recently realized how many people I hung out with have really putrid smells eminating from their pores, cracks, and crevices. YUCK]
Papi had a great show on Wednesday. Was the first time I got to see him perform live on stage and it made me wanna take him in a corner and let him "work me over" [LOL@ whitney houston]. Yeah, I'm a hornball. Anything that man does makes me wanna hump him. The next one is this coming Sunday. Should be more people there and a different crowd.
*Sigh* I love this man. This weekend he got to meet a couple of my closest friends. This was very important to me, considering we spend more time with his friends than with mine, given the schedules and long-distance locations of my peoples. He received stamps of approval from all who met him. One thing that I love most about him is that he has this positive energy about him that is so engaging that people cannot help but like him upon meeting him. He is funny, smart, a great conversationalist, and has things in common with most people. He knows how to reach people on common grounds and people become drawn to him. One of the people who advocated most for him, without even meeting him, at the time when I was so scared and ready to leave gave him two major thumbs up. He said he didnt feel like an asshole for supporting him lol. Mel likes him. Her friend likes him. People like him.
Most importantly, we just went through a series of unfortunate events together. Relationships are often tested in times of tribulation and we went through them together. We supported each other, loved each other, and were each other's strength. We don't let those outside forces come inside of what we have and break it apart. We face them together. that is what a strong relationship is all about. That is what love is all about.
Ever have that after-tragedy or near-tragic experience sex?
*wink*
posted by MBT4679 at 7/25/2005 01:25:00 PM
4 Comments:
Correction - Mel LOVES him and is happy for you both. It's gonna get better. I know it will. We had a blast this weekend. And for the record, beating two people who have NEVER played before by one point does NOT constitute a "whipping". And uh, who got the ONLY hole in one? Yeah...that's what I thought. Now bring me a banana cognac BEYOTCH!
You know - you remind me sooo much of myself when I was your age. Not that I am an old lady, but we seem to have had siliar experiences, and reactions to those experiences.
When you wrote that your circle of friends is getting smaller, I was soo happy for you. It takes someone very special to be your friend through the good/bad, single/in love, balling/poor. Who ever you had to cut-off is the person who is missing out on your friendship....
As for the Indian Reps... I will save my bigotry for another date.. but girl good luck. My lap top was stolen from my office and the security people here were like..."oh, that's too bad"!
I am glad you are in love and from what I hear your man is totally in love with you too.
Do your thing - cant wait for date night so I can meet the infamous "Papi"
ALWAYS chock full of info.
benee... sorry about your computer. i would be lost. pictures. music. writing. powerpoints. contacts. etc.
as for everything else in the post... isn't that how life plays out? i mean... ups, downs, uncertainty.... that's life. some people never get used to the uncertainty.... and that's where the beauty of a relationship comes in -- because the significant other BECOMES the only constant.
i love reading what you write.
hugz,
neena
I just checked in on your blog since I've missed your 'voice' other places... ;)
I'm sorry to hear of your misfortunes, but glad that you are so happily in love. Good luck with the apartment and all of your upcoming endeavors.
C.A.T.
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