Pre-Weekend Jibber Jabber

Danjaruz Demeanor:
Jerk-offish

Daily Danjaruz Deliberation:
giveit away, give it away, give it away now

Danjaruz Disclosures, Declarations, and Diatribes:
so yeah, im giving my cat up for adoption. Before I take him back to North Shore Animal league tomorrow, if anyone wants him, let me know. Why, you ask? Well a number of reasons. My boyfriend is allergic to him, he is very clingy and cannot be left alone for long stretches of time, and I do not want a pet when we move to our new home.

So my management company has locked me into this lease, so we decided that he will come stay with me until my lease is over. This way, we can save even more money, I can pay off my debts, and we will be a lot closer to getting a car. We will also have more time to find the *perfect* home. [the good deal on the 4 bedroom comes complete with a shady landlord who likes to call people at 11:35 p.m.-- what the fuck?]

Anyway, I'm home today. We are finally moved in completely and I anticipate being able to get back into the swing of things on Monday. Still not internet access, though. I hear it might be two weeks.

I did a very rough draft of the prologue and asked someone to read it. It went unread. That was disappointing, and reminds me why I am not big on sharing what I write; the responses are taken to heart. I get excited about something dear to me that other people might not be as excited about, and that is ok. I will just keep it to myself from now on.

My girl Touwanna wrote a blog about sistas doing well career-wise and socially dealing with men who aren't on their level in terms of education, finances, social abilities, etc. I feel her on the things she wrote because I have been in situations where I have treated men like charity cases. I am the helpful type, always trying to help those in need, and that also applies to friends and lovers. I guess that is why it feels so nice, albeit uncomfortable sometimes, to have someone take care of me. I have been out with men significantly older than me who had no steady employment and I found myself often paying their way. I didnt mind, and in the back of my mind I knew they were using me [and that whole "well i never asked u to do it" thing is for the birds] but i felt charitable. I mean hey, people gotta eat right? But in this giving, was I enabling these men? Was i sending an infantilizing message? That is one of the things I know some men cannot handle; a woman who is better off than they are and they cannot provide for the woman. It puts them in positions of inferiority and makes them feel bad in ways that cause them to lash out at women. They tend to find so many things wrong with the women.

Fuck it. Starve then bitch!
See if I ever feel sorry for these non-working, uneducated fuckahs again!!!

Ahem, bringing it back to center.
Ohmmmmmmm. Ohmmmmmmm. lol.

You ever get the feeling that things are being said about you that arent exactly true or that people have the wrong idea about you? Yeah, i say fuck it too lol.

Imma miss my kitty =(

I think I am addicted to porn and masturbation, is that bad? If you plan a time of day, the video, the instrument, the mood music, and the scenery for a masturbation "session", you might be addicted to masturbation. I still cannot believe in this day and age there are women who do not own sex toys like dildos or vibrators. That is a shammockery!!! They get to "the point" talking bout, "fingers dont fail me now"... shiiiiiiiiiit vrooom vrooom biznatches

You ever spend so much time engaging with someone that you assume some of his/her mannerisms/speech patterns? I'm beginning to understand the effects of close relationships. You adapt other people' actions. Like nowadays, i tend to call Mel while Im on the toilet. I got that shit from her!! I swear I did. And Im beginning to enunciate my cuss words the same as my boyfriend. I tell ya...*smh*

So yeah since I dont have to do any real moving, the NYC blogger Meet Up is SO on and popping. Dont worry folks, I am working on putting together the itinerary, but it is getting close now, so make those travel arrangements now!!!!!!