Blogger Meet Up in NYC

Daily Danjaruz Deliberation:
"It's getting lateeeeeee"

Danjaruz Disclosures, Declarations, and Diatribes:

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Yes, negroes I am calling y'all OUT!!!! LMAO

With the exception of a few ladies, black folks were LATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Golden, you know you get a pass only cuz... lol

But Imma need the time to NEVER be set at 9:30pm and heads are just getting off of planes, folks still in their houses (prolly in their draws picking belly button lint), or on their way to pick up other people ALL the way across town.

*tapping fingers*

I got there at 9:40, thinking I was late, cuz I was trying to find a park. I go in, look around, didn't see anyone I recognized so I made a few phone calls. Upon realizing that folks were going to be EXTRAORIDNARILY late, I decided I needed to head on home to my family.

Then I remembered that I had to get some flyers from someone needing my assistance in promoting a party. He ends up taking the mile when I offered him an inch, and I end up riding around Brooklyn for the next two hours. At 11:30pm, Golden calls me to tell me folks are there. Im like mannnnn I should go home, but I might as well go back over there since I'm in BK and I came out already. Cee, metamorphasis, edwidge, and others were on time for the most part, but me not knowing they were coming OR what folks looked like, NOR having numbers, it was impossible to make the link up. That is the only thing I hate about events like this, when you have to walk in blind.

I go and when I walk in, I see another friend of mine, Mark, having dinner with a companion, so I spoke to him for a second, then went to find the bloggers.

I walk over, see everyone talking, eating, drinking, and I say hello. Everyone seemed pretty involved in conversations. I pulled up a chair and began talking with Edwidge, who has a beautiful name by the way, to match her beautiful smile. She was very sweet. I chatted a bit with a few folks, but I was more observant than anything. That is how I am around a bunch of people I have never met before. I'm normally really outgoing and stuff, but when it is around people I don't know, I just take a moment to absorb people's energies and vibes. There was some interesting energy there that night, but that is another story.

Golden and I had a little bit of business to discuss, us having "peoples" in common, which is SO fucking random, but this world is just entirely too small lol. Golden is really pretty yall lol. Kelvin could get it. Like seriously. I love my man, yes. I do. But Kelvin might have to revisit the big girl loving one mo time. LOL ok lemme stop before I get cut.

Then we started taking pictures. I will post these pictures this evening. I am so late with this because I haven't been near a computer long enough to type anything this entire weekend. I only had half of a long island iced tea and a slice of cheesecake. I had to drive and the alcohol and sugar would have made the Brooklyn Bridge seem extra long. Made it from downtown BK to Parkchester in 21 minutes. Searched for parking for 35 minutes. What the fuck man?? LOL Was supposed to go home to my family, but they were alseep.

Its ok cuz I made up for it for bringing them breakfast in the morning.

I think I'm looking forward to Chicago, maybe things will be a bit more relaxed. I know my girls and I are going for a weekend full of debauchery. It will be easy traveling with folks. I hope folks are ready to get down with the get down. I know some folks might be somewhat conservative or uptight but im hoping that others are more relaxed and about having all out, wild out fun. I know Ted is, but we will see who else is *wink*

Danjaruz Haiku:
Why are colored late?
They know we got shit to do
Drinks help me forgive

Good hair day

Danjaruz Depictions:





Danjaruz Disclosures, Declarations, and Diatribes:
yeah i went to get my hurr did... what yall think? lol

im trying to give my own hair a break from the elements and weather and such. I think this summer is going to be one of experimental hairstyles, as my natural hair grows. I think im going to stay away from the microbraids for a while, they can tear up ya hair. I normally wear them because they are flexible, but damn, I was up until 3:30 a.m. this morning taking those fuckahs out. I was like oh no, nawwww not the kid. If I get em again, I'm going to pay them the $20 they charge to take them out.

i washed a blow dryed my hair this morning and my hair is for real a thick nappy bush, but i love every inch of it. I just wish it were healthier. I need to get it trimmed. Havent done that since I cut my locs off in sept of 2003.

Ahh well, Im happy to be nappy and Im going to spend this summer doing styles I like, styles that are ME.

*cheese*
Danjaruz Haiku:
She pulled my hair hard
I almost punched her face in
Damn, I'm looking good

Need to finish this book...

Daily Danjaruz Deliberation:
I dont wanna write things down
I just wanna tell you how I feel right now

Danjaruz Disclosures, Declarations, and Diatribes:
I started two books. Two books, two plots, two different reasons and motivations for writing. I stopped writing one to start the other, but the second one was halted because my primary subject decided she couldnt continue with the exploration and interviewing. So ok, I am revisiting the first one.

I read about a writing contest where they will give you $5K to help with your writing committment. I want to submit my work but I don't know what to submit. Do I submit some of my "poetry" or do I submit two chapters from book #1? I have to have it in by June 20, 2005 though, so I need to get moving.

I just went back and reread the first 5 chapters of book #1 and I was amazed at myself. I never thought I had much skill at fiction because it isnt my favorite genre. I like to tell stories, not write them down. Its an arduous task that requires focus that I do not have. I do not have the ability to pay attention long enough to write more than a few sentences at a time. I'm surprised I got out 5 chapters, but I wrote those in like 2 days when I was in a frenzy.

Now I'm just like...blah. I know I need to keep writing. Someone will want to read this story. I'm insane, actually, I think. It shows in my writing. I'm a sick puppy. I think that is another reason why I walked away from book #1; I was scared at what my mind was conjuring up.

Ahhh well. This week I think Im going to dedicate an hour a day to writing. Not blogging (which I find distracts me from my real writing), not talking on the phone, not checking emails, nothing but straight up writing, character development, plot lines, etc.

Yeah, Imma do that.

My Truth

"'Cause he is the truth
Said he is so real
And I love the way
That he makes me feel"

Danjaruz Piece:

My Truth

You have spoken truth
Your heart whispered to mine
“I swear to love, completely love you”
My truth would now be empty without mentioning your name
You are it, you are here
And I am blessed
My needs were not needs until I needed you
My desires were not desires until I began to desire you
My body was cold until you touched it
My spirit bore an open wound;
Your love healed it
My precious, beautiful love
Adoration I express
As I kneel before you, my king
You are it, you are here
I swear, I will completely love you
The longing to touch you
When you are not here
Consumes, distracts my most focused intentions
I lose all sensibilities and I reach out for you
Reaching not far because
You are here, you are it
You are now… my truth
Your heart whispered to mine
“I will protect you, I completely love you”
My life would now be empty without seeing your face
Hearing your voice
Touching your soul
My fantasies were no more than dreams until you came into my reality
My love was not love until I loved you
I submit to you; I submit to the call of
Your heart, which whispered to me
“I am yours”
And I knew then
I would love you forever….

Poem by
-Michelle B. Watson

Once again, you can use it, just don't act like it's yours

Songs We Forget We Remember

Danjaruz Disclosures, Declarations, and Diatribes:
Am I the only one seeing stars? Ok, wow, the world just seems brighter. Cool.

yeah so I moved my blog to http://www.danjaruz.com/blog.html. Chances are, you know this by now, but make sure you tell all of your friends so they can come visit me!


Ok I just had to do a blog post dedicated to those "classic" songs we seem to forget, but once we hear them, we know ALL of the words. I was talking to a friend the other day about this. You could go 10 years without hearing a song, but let that song come on the radio, or you somehow rediscover it, you know all or most of the words. Could be corny song. Could have been underappreciated classics. Could have been songs with some part that made you be like "awwww shit thats the jam!!!"

And so we begin:

"Sometimes I Miss You"- PM Dawn

See, I could have gone with "Set Adrift On Memory Bliss" but you all remember that, so it defeats the purpose. This was the song that looped in Al. B. Sure's "Night and Day" during the chorus, while they spoke/sang "Sommmmetimeeessss I misssss you (sometimes i miss you) sometimesssss I misss you (soooo much)"

Standout Lyric(s)
"The Christ in you is the christ in me..."

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"Screams of Passion"- the Family

Tell me you didn't just nod your head to this song with the heavy baseline, thinking it was Prince's new sound, not realizing, initially, that it was another one of his "groups"... Like The Time, The Family has heavy Prince influence and even featured his vocals, but this song was their signature.

Standout Lyric(s)
"Take me in your arms oh baby...I'd rather die here in your, your screams of passion"

"Ghetto Heaven"- The Family Stand

By far, one of the most forgotten songs, I believe. This song paved the way for Soul II Soul, but fell in line with groups like Club Nuveaux(sp?) and Loose Ends, among others. This was a good period for mixed gender groups, featuring instrumentalists.

Standout Lyric(s)
"It's quarter to 11, I need a little ghetto heaven"

Right click on this link and hit save target as... to download "Ghetto Heaven"

"Ain't My Type of Hype"- Full Force

You ALL remember this from one of the best dance scenes in a movie. Dancers: Kid-N-Play, A.J. Johnson, and Tisha Campbell. Movie: House Party. You not only remember the song, your favorite part is the bridge, and you remember the dancing because that was your favorite part of the movie.

Standout Lyric(s)
"You look sooooo good (You look so good). Ain't my type of hype baby, you and me are crazy cool"

Right click on this link and hit save target as... to download "Ain't My Type Of Hype"

"Keep On Walking"- Ce Ce Peniston

Remember Ce Ce's hair cut? Didn't all the sistas want that style, but fell short cuz we didn't have that "latina" in us? We loved the video, with her checking out the dudes at the basketball court. This was one of those sing-a-long songs, we loved.

Standout Lyric(s)
"I thought that what we had would never end, but now it's too late for my heart to mend. And although what we had, was good, I've got to make it understood"

Right click on this link and hit save target as... to download "Keep On Walking"

"Dancing In The Key Of Life"- Steve Arrington

Steve Arrington...ringing a bell? Yes!! Featured singer in Slave (known for "Watching You", most recently sampled by Snoop dogg in "Let's Get Blown") This song was like his turn into gospel almost, but not quite.

Standout Lyric(s)
"Dancing feet, dancing in the key of liiiiife"

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"Always"- Cherrelle, Pebbles, Alexander O'Neal

See, y'all thought about Saturday Love first didn't you? But "Always" was the better song. Especially when the ladies are talking about how they are going to sing the song together.

Standout Lyric(s)
'Baby... don't leave me... don't ever desert me. I promise... my life to you, and I'll love you always"

"Feel Like Making Love"- Bad Company

I know, I know, it isn't ringing a bell. But when you hear it, you will remember it, and the words. Its a classic 70s southern rock song.

Standout Lyric(s)
"If I had, the sun and moon, they would shinnnnneeeee and, I would give you, both night and day, love satisfyyyyyyyying. I feel like making love!!" *head bang*

"Thanks for My Child"- Cheryl Riley

Single mothers got their voice. Someone sang out about the issues they were having, which meant that the problem was becoming big and could no logner be hush-hush. Before that HORRIBLE song 'Baby Mama' by Fantasia, there was Cheryl "Pepsi" Riley singing about being left alone to raise her son.

Standout Lyric(s)
"And though your father, he ran away afraid, the love I have for you baby, is the love I have in me"

"Tom's Diner"- Suzanne Vega

Nod your head, doo doo doo doo, doo doo doo doo, doo doooo doo doo doo doooo doo.
You remember this off the wall song, right? Did you know it was an a capella, off the dome song she performed live on MTV? Someone took her lyrics and added the track behind it. We loved the beat, it was very ethnic. She was a folk singer lol.

Standout Lyric(s)
"So instead I poured the milk"

"Don't Want To Fall In Love"- Jane Child

Teddy Riley's first "hit" song as a producer. Weirded out white girl Jane, with the earring from her ear to her nose, linked with a chain. She was the mohawk lady with the blue-eyed soul voice. We were ALL shocked to see that she was white. As shocked as we were about Taylor Dane (oooooh, took it back!) and Mariah Carey.

Standout Lyric(s)
"I don't want to fall in love (no no), love cuts just like a knife (wooowooo) You make the night feel good (babyyyy) I'll fight you 'til the end"

Right click on this link and hit save target as... to download "Don't Want To Fall In Love"

"Something About You"- Level 42

I loved Europop. Level 42, A-ha, Wham, etc. They took our R&B sound and as Paula Abdul would say, "made it their own". I rediscovered this song a few years ago and damn near lost my mind.

Standout Lyric(s)
"Don't enter this dreaaammmm of undefined illusionsssss. Oh and you need to feel, the time that told the truthhhhhhh, that there is something about you....babyyyy.... so riiiiight"

Right click on this link and hit save target as... to download "Something About You"

"Mama Used To Say"- Junior

I used this for my mother's day blog. But when you hear those opening bell chimes, you know EXACTLY what song this is and you end up singing right along. Junior, the knock-ff Sylvester lol.

Standout Lyric(s)
"Mama used to say, take your time young man, mama used to say, don't you rush to get older"

"Get It Up"- The Time

Another Prince group, with another song with his vocals. We know The Time rom Purple Rain and singing "The Bird" and other songs, but this lesser-known gem is my favorite song. TLC redid this song later on.

Standout Lyric(s)
"Get it up, get it up, I'll fuck you all night!!

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"Heartbreak Hotel"- Michael Jackson

Definitely in my Top 10 all time favorite Michael Jackson songs of all time. Michael was tlaking about womEn, multiple womEn. That along makes it great.

Standout Lyric(s)
"This is hearrrrrrrrt break hotelllllllll, welcome to hearrrrrrrrrrrt break hotelllllllll"

"Please Don't Go Girl"- New Kids on the Block

You can try to deny that you listen to New Kids like you can try to deny you knew all the words to Vanilla Ice's "Ice, Ice Baby". Stop. This song was precious and brought tears to MY eyes, don't know bout yall.

"Tonight"- Ready For The World

Ready For The World had fake British accents, jheri curls, and wavy mustaches. But damn if they didn't make some panty-wetting songs. *getting moist* What yall know bout this hyeah!!

Standout Lyric(s)
"You're more woman, than I've ever seen girrrrrrl, toniiiiiight

Right click on this link and hit save target as... to download "Tonight"

"Do You Really Want Me"- Salt-N-Pepa

One of the many SNP jewels that folks slept on, I believe. Dig in ya crates folks, Black's Magic was a rare jewel.

Standout Lyric(s)
"you pu up with my butt, when I wouldnt give it up. Yeah, I know that really sucks, but if you wait awhile, I'll make it up"

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"One Blood"- Junior Reid

What??!!! OMG, you know damn well you get all those nationalities confused but you still knew what he was singing about.

Standout Lyric(s)
"Blooooooooooood, bloooooooo-oooood!!!"

"Somebody Else's Guy"- Jocelyn Brown

This song reminds me of my father. I remember he would pic me up in his arms and dance around the room with me, and for some reason, I always remembered this song playing.

Standout Lyric(s)
"What am I supposed to do, when I'm so hooked on you? Then I realize, that you're somebody else's guy"

"Congratulations"- Vesta Williams

Vesta Williams had an AMAZING voice, but I think she was slept on overall. This, in my opinion, was her best song, and the video was sad.

Standout Lyric(s)
"I hope she makes you happy, because you didn't even say goodbyeeeee (run)"

Definitive Jux | Murs Discography

Definitive Jux | Murs Discography

Check out this info on Murs

ALTRAP.NET - Album Review - Euphon - Euphonic

ALTRAP.NET - Album Review - Euphon - Euphonic

Hip hop needs to get right. There are a number of people trying to make it happen. I've come across music by Murs (3:16 the 9th Edition), Little Brother (with production by 9th Wonder...who, as my friend said, is the next Pete Rock), and Euphon, among others.

What Common might do with his latest album, Be, is remind people why we love hip hop. He is somewhat mainstream, most definitely respected, and his album might be the wake-up call we need. My hope is that the streets will begin to demand better than this shit we are spoon-fed and told to like. The supply is there, for some reason, we are lacking the demand. Heads need to wake up and realize what's going on.

Hip hop has been bought and sold. White folks are running this shit. Some tall Israeli, is running this rap shit, eh, Mos? People, I implore you!!! Stop giving in to the stupid ass Cassidys, Chingys, Ying Yang Twins, and all of the other Rin & Tins of this rap "joke". It is not even a game, it is definitely not art. This garbage has permeated our culture and we accept it; almost crave it like we crave babies with "good hair"

Stop.

Lets get back to the roots...(The Roots, Tipping Point, fucking amazing!!)

We must reclaim hip hop music, reclaim the voice of our culture. THEY cannot speak it and fuck THEM if THEY cant understand it. These are our lives we are talking about!!

Like Murs spoke about, why are the audiences for these groups mostly white? Why are less and less Black folks showing up to support true ARTISTS? White rappers who have talent are going to do better than black rappers with talent because the white kids buying 80% of hip-hop music are going to relate to the white face they see in front of them. Where is the love and support for black hip-hop artists?

What the fuck people? You spend $100 to see Jay-Z, a man who has said he has DUMBED DOWN his lyrics because that is how much he thinks about YOU. Yet, you can't check out the local set with the men and women creating true art, spitting real vocab, real knowledge, painting real pictures of our reality? You might have never heard their names, but would it kill you to check em out?

Get it together people, or fuck it, leave it alone and the true children of the culture will take care of it.
Check out this link, it is a review of group Euphon.

Real hip hop folks, for real....

Entirely Too Much Info Bout Danja

Danjaruz Disclosures, Declarations, and Diatribes:

ahhh the answers, a couple of days early because I have time to do this now. Questions weren't bad. Here I go

*** Check out Breezy and ask her some questions too!! ***

Mr. Holipsism asks:


#1. What are your thoughts on the subject of Dominance & Submission within the context of sexuality & intimacy and the way in which both African and European cultures view it?

I think dominance and submission are natural character traits. I think that within the context of sexuality, not enough people explore this side of their natural make up. I'm a sexual submissive. I know this about myself, and I am drawn to men who are naturally sexually dominant. I don't like when men "play a role"; it must be his natural inclination to dominate me. In intimate relationships, at least ones I think will last the longest, there must be one dominant person and one submissive person. In the case of two doms, one will have to cave in, and that isn't a natural way of being. There will be friction. People ought to get more in touch with their natural inclinations and desires, and flow with those. We would all be happier. I don't think about how Europeans view it cuz I could give a fuck what a cra...white person does intimately or in the bed. As for Africans, men need to be better doms and women ought to embrace their submission to strong dominant African men. He must be worthy of her submission, and unfortunately, not enough African men are worthy of complete submission by an African woman. If an African man shows himself to be the strong provider, nurturer, lover, and caregiver with the best interests of his partner and family at the forefront, the African woman should willingly and completely submit to his dominance.


#2. If you could go on vacation anywhere in the world where would it be and why that place?

I have two. Australia because it has always been a weird dream of mine to go there. I've always been fascinated with that place, and I would love to interact with some Aboriginal folk. Exchange stories, yanno? Ghana, because it is in West Africa and I want to visit the slave castles, the coasts, get my hair done for $14, and absorb everything there is to be absorbed.


#3. When was the last time you were strongly attracted to someone and what was the first thing that attracted you to them? They way they looked or something you saw? What they said? Or was it a feeling you got?

The last time I was strongly attracted to a man... Physically, he wasn't exactly my type, or at least the type I had been used to (6'5+, 300lbs+). He was slimmer than I usually date, but in a nice shape. He was taller than me, but not as much taller as I usually date. What attracted me to him was his passion for music (he is an elitist), the way he could say what was on his heart and mind (he wasnt afraid to be himself around me and share deep things with me), his love for his people (he understood my distaste for apathy), his ability to fit into any environment (he related to me on the college tip AND the hood tip), the fact that we had damn near everything in common, and his views on sex and sexuality (we're both perverts lol).

The Breezy Caramel Sundae asks:


1) If Love knocked at your door, how would you greet it?

Depends on if Love was asking me if I was prepared for Jehovah's return. LOL. Naw, seriously, I'd probably say "About time."


2) What do you believe is the greatest disservice integration has done to the black community?

Desegregation convinced Black people that white was right. I say desegregation because there was never any true integration. Black kids going to white schools, without white kids going to black schools isnt integration. Desegregation drove home the idea that cra...white people are better than we are and we ought to live up to what they determine are the keys of life. Their standards of beauty, intelligence, and success became our standard by which we would live our lives and raise our kids to live. That was the worst thing.


3) Where would you place the line of demarcation between a forgiving heart and a foolish one?

Forgiving hearts forgive, let things go, and move on, learning from the experience and gaining wisdom. They work at avoiding similar situations and applying what they have learned. Foolish hearts forgive, let things go, move on, but allow things to happen again and again and again, especially when involved with the SAME person. They have learned nothing.

Will, the Harlem Thrill, asks:

1. What is your greatest life accomplishment to date and why so?

I was just talking with Mr. Holipsism about this last night. I think it was writing and directing a play in college called, A Dream Deferred. I was able to incorporate various aspects of the history of Africans in America, our art, and a message about the importance of the hip-hop generation's voice in the representation of our culture and history. Sold out every night, got to work with people I truly respected, and it was a labor of love. I discovered my love for directing, which naturally went in line with me being the natural born leader that I am.


2. You MUST choose the ONE song that most effectively conveys your life story. Name the song and the reason you chose it, OK? *had to add the OK at the end in order to make it a question...lol*

God Will... ONE song? For a music slave? You are asking the impossible. But here goes:

"Everybody Hurts" by R.E.M.
When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on


3. If you could plan the perfect day for yourself, with noooooo boundaries, what would be the day's itinerary?

12:00pm Wake up...slowly to a nice stiff penis in my face
12:15pm After 15 brief minutes of giving head, hopefully I'm sliding it in...
12:59pm Deep breaths... ask my man what he wants for Brunch
1:25pm Serve my man his brunch
2:00pm we take a shower together and probably have more sex
3:00pm we head to Starbucks for Soy caramel machiattos and low fat rasperry pound cakes
3:47pm we head to Barnes & Noble to sit on the floor and read love poems and erotic stories to each other
4:37pm We have sex in the B&N bathroom
5:00pm We catch a movie
7:30pm We go to Sahara's Turkish Cuisine on 29th and 2nd for a wonderful dinner of hummus, calamari, salmon, souvlaki, and baklava
8:30pm We try to catch a cab to Times Square
8:45pm Still trying to hail the cab
8:53pm We begin to debate walking, but our pride makes us determined to hail a cab
9:03we begin making out in the cab
9:15pm He tells me to "shhh" cuz he's been fingering me and I'm going crazy at how good I taste.
9:18pm We stop at the Nuts4Nuts stand and get roasted cashews,and feed them to each other.
9:25pm He leads me to Sephora and tells me to pick out whatever 5 items I want
9:30pm I stare at him in amazement from across the room, thinking about how much I love him.
9:59pm Bag in hand, I suggest we head home because I want to show how thankful I am for my gifts.
11:03pm Thank you...


Iselfra Asks:

1. if you were stuck on a deserted island, which three books would you take with you?
Go Tell It On The Mountain James Baldwin
Black Noise Tricia Rose
Bible God

2. if there was anyone famous who you would like to kick his or her ass, who would it be?
Ann Coulter

3. beer or wine?
Beer.

Dayrell asks:


1. fave purse/hand bag? (and I want a picture!!!!! haha!) :)

Sorry babygirl, don't have one. lol

2. a foreign language you wouldn't mind learning one day?
Arabic, it is so beautiful and lyrical

3. most greatest childhood memory? :))
Riding shotgun with my dad singing duets that came on the radio with him.

Apple Head Risi asks:

#1 Along the lines of Voyeurism, is it more exciting to watch or be watched? i know u will explain!

Goodness this is hard. Im such the voyeur and such the exhibitionist. If I have to choose, I say watching. There is nothing like watching people get down and dirty. I would especially love it if I could direct. "Bitch, lift your legs up, I cannot get a clear line of sight to your pussy!!!"

#2 Can you remember the most inebriated u have ever been? if so please recount the experience, the good the bad and the ugly! "im sorry michelle!!"

Las Vegas in 2001 I believe. Drank almost an entire bottle of Southern Comfort. I blacked out. I remember bits and pieces, like the male cab driver with the major finger waves in his hair talking about "Dis Vegas Styleeee", me crawling out of the elevator, me being carried through the casino and people cheering my drunkeness, I heard I farted really loudly while crawling, knocking the phone off the hook and no one being able to get to me and folks thinking I was dead, telling people to shut the fuck up cuz they were talking too much lol. it was a mess, from what I hear, but to this day, I hardly remember much of the evening.

#3 when was the last time that you cried? what were the circumstances?
Last night. I was expressing to someone how much he'd hurt me and I was crying because I was thinking about how much I have enable people to treat me certain ways.

Darling Nikki asks:


1. What was the worst job you ever had?
Working at Kirspy Kreme. Ended up getting stalked by a customer. Gained 35 lbs too.

2. Do you have any fears or phobias?
I fear not living up to my fullest potential. I fear dying alone. I fear heights and closed spaces.

3. Which celebrity would you bone on the 50-yard line during halftime at the Superbowl?

LOL. Suge Knightttttttttttttttttttttttttt

Africa's Native Son asks:

1.Have You ever taken IT in the grill?lol

All of the time and I love it. One of my fave things.

2.whats the strongest attraction you've ever felt to someone and who was that person? See my answer to Holipsism's question.

3.can you count all your sex partners on both hands..meaning <10 or >10.?
My hands, your hands, her hands, his hands, etc... get the picture?

Dymonds asks:


1.Why you get rid of your locks?

Making changes in my life, needed new energy, a new beginning. They were getting heavy too and I started having some neck pain. Plus, I wanted to run a comb thru my hair, it had been a while lol.

2.What is the title of your book?

Three Sisters.

3.How often to do you pamper yourself?

It used to be very rarely, but I'm getting better at it. I am learning how to pamper myself in tidbits everyday. Whether I splurge on a foot scrub, or I take special care with choosing my jewelry for the day. I am learning to treat my body better, take better care of my mind and spirit.


Chelle asks:

What one question do you think I would really want to ask you?
You can take three shots at what it would be.

Mannnn I don't know lol. I cant even answer this one, I'm sorry, Im drawing a blank.

Neena asks:

#1 What movie, if any, has affected your life? Why?

Radio Flyer. It was a story about young kids being abused by a step-parent. I could relate. That and Bastard Out Of Carolina.

#2 Do you believe in soul mates? Why?

Yes!! And I think that people can have more than one soul mate. Soul mate to me doesnt automatically mean a romantic partner. Could be a ghetto soul twin lol.

#3 What celebrity, dead or alive, would play you in a movie? Why?

Lisa Nicole Carson, cuz she is sexy and a halfway decent actress.

Chitown's Sexiest asks:


1. Where the hell did you get those questions you asked on my 3 pic meme?

Did I ask them in the pic meme or the questions meme? lol. They came from my head, of course.

2. Are you into S & M??

I'm into dominance and submission, but I am not a masochist. I enjoy aggression and extra physical contacts. I am a sub, by nature, so I do enjoy dominating actions like choking, hair pulling, ass slapping, commands, dirty names, collars, leashes, facials, and other "degrading" things.

3. Where do you see yourself in the next year?

Looking for a new job, hopefully preparing to go to graduate school. I'll be in NYC, living the life of a 27 year old sexy female in the city.

Soulful asks:


1. Would you please describe your BEST sexual experience? (See how I made sure that was a question?)

Had great, furious, ravaging sex with this dude whose dick was thick like a soda can, on the bleachers of a baseball field in Central Park, wih people jogging by and cops riding by. Amazing...


2. If you could take back ONE action that you've done in your life which one would it be and why?

Deciding not to go to graduate school right after college. I'm bored. My friends are in grad school, law school, med school, etc. I'm not doing anything that would advance me in my career, or stimulate my completely bored mind. I should have gone to Yale for my PhD in American Studies.

3. What three songs are sure to bring tears to your eyes?

"Send For Me" Atlantic Starr
"Behind The Wall" Tracy Chapman
"Troubles of the World" Mahalia Jackson

more questions...late additions

Icy asks:


1.What makes a woman really beautiful?
Her mind is the key to her appeal. The most beautiful thing about a woman is the way she thinks about herself and the world. Her outlook on life, her confidence in her intelligence and beauty, etc.


2. Name three things that you hate
1. white people with no understanding that they benefit from racism daily
2. black men who sleep with white women
3. waterbugs


3. Do you [feel]that sexuality and spirituality are connected? If so how?

Most definitely. Sexuality is an element of one's spiritual being. Without a spiritual connection, sexual experiences are lacking. You have sex, as a woman, and allow someone's body to enter yours. You are literally allowing someone to exist inside of you. You damn right there is a spiritual connection. If there isnt, I pity the person engaging in spirit-less sex.

Sabre asks:

1. WHO'S UR GREATEST AND LATEST INSPIRATION?

Honestly, my mother. People who know me might find that shocking. But lately, I'm coming to understand her more, appreciate her struggle more, and value her presence and influence on my life. Plus, I cannot look into the mirror and not see her.


2. WHERE ON THE FRONT LINE ARE YOU FOR BLACK/WOMEN'S RIGHTS?

I think I am at the theoretical line. I believe in rights for black women in theory, but I understand that as Black women, many of us don't even believe in our rights, so we can't fight for them. I'm a feminist in theory. I do not support the "feminist movement" because it is racist, and white women are at the center of damn near every problem Black people have. lol. Women deserve equal pay for equal work. We deserve to not be treated as second class citizens in a society of men who don't take care of us. They say we aren't equal, but they don't take care of us. They leave us to fend for ourselves, AND make it twice as hard to survive. Hmph....


3. WHEN THE HELL ARE U HAVING SOME "DANJARUZ" BABIES THAT WE CAN ADMIRE?

When I find someone worthy enough to splice genes with. LOL

3 questions...

So for those of you who don't frequent the other blogs that I do, Im going to explain what I am doing. Today is Tuesday. You all have until Friday to submit 3 Question that you want me to answer

THREE QUESTIONS

Leave the questions in the comment section. I will answer the questions Saturday or Sunday and post every answer to every question to the best of my ability.

Ask anything you want to know about me. No question is too crazy. Then again,if it is, I will just dodge the answer like Kelz did LOL

Anyway, from Will to Kel, I steal, and present my

Three Question Meme...

feel free.

Ghetto Soul Twins

Can we NEVER take similar pictures 1000 miles apart????



Danja



Breez

Yeah, this is my ghetto soul twin lol

Beautiful Monday!!

Danjaruz Demeanor:


Daily Danjaruz Deliberation:
Then I look at you
And the world's alright with me
Just one look at you
And I know it's gonna be
A lovely day

Danjaruz Disclosures, Declarations, and Diatribes:

So right it is Monday, and I'm feeling psyched up and bananas!! Don't ask me why but I'm feeling sooooo good right now. Maybe it is the fact that the sun is shining. Maybe the fact that I'm have a good hair day. Maybe its because I worked out this morning and my adrenaline is pumping out of control. Maybe its these grits and eggs I'm killing right now. Maybe it is because I am one day closer to my trip to the Chi (what up breezy, risi,kelz, golden, singing, brutha, etc) Maybe it is because for the last month, since I turned 26, I have had a different outlook on life. Things seem so much brighter. So much bullshit in lmy life has been cast aside.

I spent a great weekend with so many people I love and who love me and it was so wonderful. There were a few "interesting" moments, but above all, it was great. From then on, I decided that I am going to live my life to the fullest. I won't be concerned about what people say about me. My mom always told me that I shouldnt be concerned that people are talking about me, but rather, I should be concerned when people don't talk about me at all. Ok. Cool.

Spent a nice day with my mom yesterday. I try to spend mother's day with her every year now, as I get older. I realize she isnt getting any younger. With each year that passes, I am able to let go of a lot of resentment and anger. I had a dream two nights in a row last week, that my mother died. I dreamed about the details of her funeral and the whole nine yards. I told her about it. She asked, "Well, did I look good?" She took the words out of my mouth, cuz I was about to say right then, "But don't worry, you looked great."

I am my mother's daughter.

Lately, a lot of people have been telling me that I look just like my mother. When I was younger, I was my father's daughter. In my teen years, I looked exactly like both of them, and I was an equal composition of their personalities. As I get older, I find that I am becoming my mother. With the exception of the whole having a daughter at 23 and being a lesbian thing. Aside from that, the similarities are amazing.

I am my mother's daughter.

We look alike. I'm brown cuz my dad is so dark he rarely shows up in pictures. Really. When he pledged A Phi A, his line name was "Midnight". He has to smile to be seen, for real. I tend to go for tall, dark men, I guess, kinda like my dad. And you have seen the pics of my mom in my mother's day post. Light skin, blondish hair. But yeah, I look just like my mom, except my eyes are my dad's. My mom and I are built the same, we walk the same, we both talk with our hands, we have the SAME voice. When I've stayed with her and answered her phone or she has answered my phone, people cannot tell the difference between us. I've had dudes kick game to my moms because of this, yo. Not sexy.

I am my mother's daughter.

We both have masculine approaches to life, or so-called masculine approaches. We think logically, process things with keen analysis, and go with rationale before emotion. This is not natural for either of us, but because of life's circumstances, we have been forced to be this way. We are both fire signs with the natural inclination to charge ahead, but having had such fucked up experiences in life, we have learned to slow down, think things out, and act from the mind before the heart.

*ok I'm back, just got off the phone with my mom*

Neither of us likes to ask for things, but we like to give to others. She knows when I don't have money, I won't ask her for it, so she will go to the bank and make a deposit. Or she will ask me if I want to go food shopping, and if she notices I'm skimping on what I buy, she pretends to be shopping for herself, and puts things in the basket. Then when the bill comes up and I'm packing, she will slide her card through and buy my food. Before I began working at this place and receiving Metrocards, she would be like "oh look what I found, I don't need these anymore since I'm driving to work now" and she would give me new Metrocards so I could get back and forth to work. When my mom wasn't working, and her and her gorlfriend were struggling, she wouldn't take anything from me. So I'd go to her apartment and slide an envelope of money under the door. Or I'd cook and take food over to her house and leave it outside the door. I sometimes went online to pay her Cablevision bill, or I'd pay her AT&T bill so her cell phone would stay on. Neither of us will ask for any help, but we employ covert S.W.A.T. tactics to help others without being obvious. I guess we both want to give so much to others, having never really received much growing up.

I am my mother's daughter.

I have too many friends who spent yesterday thinking about mothers they no longer had in the flesh. Some people have been mad at me because of the relationship I have had with my mom. For those without mothers, I can definitely understand. But they don't know our story. They cannot understand how hard it is for me to be where I am in terms of thinking about her. I still have a long way to go. Yesterday, she began the "Grandma" talk again. She thinks she is getting old. My mom will be 50 in December, and yet she thinks she is old. She is pushing me to give her a grandbaby, and thinks I'm getting up in age cuz I'm 26 and she had me when she was 23. Four years from 30. No kids. lol. I only have ONE friend in her 20s who has kids and she was married young. I look at the ladies I went to school with, none of them have kids. We are chilling. I want kids, a lot of them. But I have to find the right man with whom I can splice genes. I tell mom to chill with the pressure. I will have kids when I am ready and when I find the right man.

I am my mother's daughter.
And I am sure I will have a daughter of my own, who will look just like me, my mother, and her mother.

Mother's Day Jams

*No, I did not include "I'll Always Love My Mama" cuz that isn't one of MY top songs about mothers...relax*

**"Dear Mama" by Tupac is like Song 0 for me, no I didn't forget it"**


Danjaruz Disclosures, Declarations, and Diatribes:
Top Songs About Mothers (In No Particular Order)

1. "A Song For Mama"- Boys II Men

"You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there
To comfort me
And no one else can be
What you have been to me
You'll always be
You will always be the girl
In my life for all times"

2. "Mama"- Spice Girls

"Back then I didn't know why,
why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
all that you did was love,

Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
Your my friend "

3. "All That I Got It You"- Ghostface Killah

Things was deep, my whole youth was sharper than cleats
Two brothers with muscular dystrophy, it killed me
But I remember this, mom's would lick her finger tips
...
All that I got is you
And I'm so thankful I made it through

Word up mommy, I love you
Word up
It was all you, word, you brought me in like this"

4. "Mama Used To Say"- Junior

"Mama used to say
Take your time young man
Mama used to say
Don't you rush to get older
Mama used to say
Take it in your stride
Mama used to say
Live your life"

5. "Waiting For You"-N.E.R.D.

"She turned the baby over her eyes were still blue
baby had a smile and said...
"I was waitin for you!"
mom I was waitin for you!
your baby!
momma!
I love you!
and I was waitin for you!
heyyyyy
I was waitin for you..
I was waiting for you..
momma..
I was waiting for you..
I love you ma.."

6. "Mother, Mother" Tracy Bonham

Mother mother can you hear me, sure I'm sober, sure I'm sane.
Life is perfect, never better, still your daughter, still the same.

If I tell you what you want to hear,
will it help you to sleep well at night?
Are you sure that I'm your perfect dear,
now just cuddle up and sleep tight."

7. "Mother"- Tori Amos

"Mother the car is here
Somebody leave the light on
Blood chariot for the redhead
Dancing, dancing girl
He's gonna change my name
Maybe you'll leave the light on
Just in, just in case I like the dancing
I can remember where I come from"

8. "Run To The Sun"- N.E.R.D.

It goes while you're here
I wanna tell you something
It's that I love you girl
Yeah, and I wish we could run to the sun
And never come back
Yeah"

9. "Coventry Carol"

"Herod the King, in his raging,
Charged he hath this day;
His men of might, in his own sight,
All children young, to slay.

Then woe is me, poor Child, for Thee,
And ever mourn and say;
For Thy parting nor say nor sing,
By-bye lully, lullay."


10. "Thanks For My Child"

Thanks for my child
I'm really thanking you
The man above
Thanks for my child
You brought me so much joy,
This bundle of love
And though your father
He ran away afraid
The love I have for you baby
Is the love I have in me"

Ma

Danjaruz Depictions:


Daily Danjaruz Deliberation:
"She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free,
Catching me in places that I know I shouldn't be,
Every other day I crossed the line,
I didn't mean to be so bad,
I never thought you would
become the friend I never had.

Back then I didn't know why,
why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
all that you did was love,"

-"Mama"- Spice Girls


Danjaruz Villanelle:


Too ashamed to call her name, into the prodigal abyss you flee.
Your mother, the vessel through which your spirit made its way.
Struggling in the darkest hour, her love’s light will set you free.

Fearing that you have not lived up to everything she wanted you to be,
Believing that your decisions continue to disappoint her everyday.
Too ashamed to call her name, into the prodigal abyss you flee.



You colored outside of the lines. Your art, she showed to all who could see
Painting the grass pink and the clouds green, you created a brand new day
When you struggle in the darkest hour, her love’s light will set you free

Behind buildings, in stairways, escaping her wrath thru seeds and trees
Thinking she did not know you were no longer pure… that day
Too ashamed to call her name, into the prodigal abyss you flee



Her faith proclaimed you would be anything or anyone you wanted to be
Identity crises, emotional trauma, mental stress, she would hold you and say,
“When you struggle in the darkest hour, my love’s light will set you free.”

If there was anyone who would accept and love imperfect you, it would be she
Leaving the door open; back home, you would eventually make your way
Once too ashamed to call her name, into the prodigal abyss you did flee
When you struggled in the darkest hour, her love’s light is what set you free



Poem by Michelle B. Watson
if ya wanna use it, fine, but don't act like YOU wrote it

Stewie Griffin (Family Guy) Soundboard

Stewie Griffin (Family Guy) Soundboard

This site is so hot. You can hover and click on the lines and hear Stewie utter his best lines

Love it!!!

5 Topics for 05/05/05

Danjaruz Demeanor:


Danjaruz Disclosures, Declarations, and Diatribes:


One...

Bombs over New York City...

What in the hell??? So ok, I have to laugh, cuz you know what? It is about to be OVER for us. This isnt funny in a "ha ha you stupid Americans" kind of way, but more like a "Ha ha oh shit we gonna die!"

Did they say two grenades exploded by the U.N.?
Did Bloomberg get on T.V. trying to downplay it? Talking about "yeah there is no reason for people to not come to work today in this area"

Can I slap him? Ok White people, go to work. Go ahead. Keep on keeping on.

Can Commissioner Kelly kiss my ass and be real for once? "Looks like some grenades from World Warr II that someone would keep on their desks"

*blank stare*

And y'all want to elect Hillary? LOL People say it should come down to Condi and Hill. Im like ok, if America elects a female president, this country will be leveled. LEVELED I say!!! From NYC to L.A., nothing but ashes and rubble.

Two...

Dancing Queen

so for now imma party like its ... wait in 1999 I was wilding out...ok so I'mma party like its 2009.



Danja [middle] getting her party on last Saturday
I had a great time this past weekend. Went to a party and had a lot of fun. I was focused on one individual, and he was focused on me. I got to see some folks I love hanging out with. I got to see some hellacious sights as well, but more fodder for my tomfoolery. LOL. Did he say "trunks"? Got my dance on, my drink on, and my QT on. Can't beat that with a bat.

Three...

She Who Struggles

OK so, they upped the bounty on Assata Shakur.
1) If you do not know who Assata Shakur is, I implore you to leave this blog, go to Google and research this extraordinary woman. Then come back and let us discuss.

2)Her bounty is now $1 million. They have labeled her a "terrorist", as dangerous as Osama bin Laden. Roman Polanski gets an Academy Award for being a pedophile. Assata Shakur gets slapped with a bounty and labeled a terrorist for fighting in the "struggle". Did she bomb anyone? Has she claimed to be responsible for the killing and destructions of hundreds or thousands of lives? My God...


("Assata" means "She who struggles")

3) Read her book, Assata: An Autobiography

Three Point Five (it is connected to Assata, who lives in Cuba)...

Socialism:

1. Any of various theories or systems of social organization in which the means of producing and distributing goods is owned collectively or by a centralized government that often plans and controls the economy.

2. The stage in Marxist-Leninist theory intermediate between capitalism and communism, in which collective ownership of the economy under the dictatorship of the proletariat has not yet been successfully achieved.

Yes, I am somewhat of an American Socialist. Though I am leaning more towards dropping the "American" element of it, because including "American", suggests that I endorse the capitalism that America was built, and stands, upon. It is times like this that I really hate this country. I mean it is crazy because people always say "well if you hate it so much, leave". That is always easier said than done, even
for people living in fascist, dictator-ruled countries. I am, however, allowed to express my disgust with the U.S. Government and its policies. I believe I am a Utopian Socialist, as I believe in the utopian ideology of Socialism, but I understand that human nature will never allow for it. Greed lives in ALL of us.


"In America where we remain a capitalistic free market society. Incrementally we're instituting social programs. Take note of the root word (socialism). Instead of a system owned collectively by the people, our system is owned privately but taxed mercilessly by the government for wealth re-distribution for our collective social good. I.E. Social Security, Medicare, Medicaid, Welfare and Education. This
results in the American Socialism Model, better known as our social (ism) programs.

The socialism paradigm penalizes success and rewards mediocrity and failure."
from American
Socialism

Four...

Emmett Till

They are digging up Emmett Till's body. As my friend said, "I am so tired of this Picasso justice..." I think what happened to Mr. Till was a hellacious tragedy. It exemplified how many American cra...white people feel about Black people. There were confessions. We thought it was over. Now they want to re-open the case because
there are accusations that there were accomplices, Black accomplices. Wouldn't the cra... white people cling to this like they do to "well African sold other Africans into slavery, so it wasn't all our fault".

*moment of silence for this complete and utter discouraging bullshit*

"Twas down in Mississippi no so long ago,
When a young boy from Chicago town stepped through a Southern door.
This boy's dreadful tragedy I can still remember well,
The color of his skin was black and his name was Emmett Till.

Some men they dragged him to a barn and there they beat him up.
They said they had a reason, but I can't remember what.
They tortured him and did some evil things too evil to repeat.
There was screaming sounds inside the barn, there was laughing sounds out on the street.

Then they rolled his body down a gulf amidst a bloody red rain
And they threw him in the waters wide to cease his screaming pain.
The reason that they killed him there, and I'm sure it ain't no lie,
Was just for the fun of killin' him and to watch him slowly die.

And then to stop the United States of yelling for a trial,
Two brothers they confessed that they had killed poor Emmett Till.
But on the jury there were men who helped the brothers commit this awful crime,
And so this trial was a mockery, but nobody seemed to mind.

I saw the morning papers but I could not bear to see
The smiling brothers walkin' down the courthouse stairs.
For the jury found them innocent and the brothers they went free,
While Emmett's body floats the foam of a Jim Crow southern sea.

If you can't speak out against this kind of thing, a crime that's so unjust,
Your eyes are filled with dead men's dirt, your mind is filled with dust.
Your arms and legs they must be in shackles and chains, and your blood
it must refuse to flow,
For you let this human race fall down so God-awful low!

This song is just a reminder to remind your fellow man
That this kind of thing still lives today in that ghost-robed Ku Klux Klan.
But if all of us folks that thinks alike, if we gave all we could give,
We could make this great land of ours a greater place to live.

-"The Death of Emmett Till"
Bob Dylan


Five...

Black Widow

I haven't been blogging a lot lately because I have been busy outside enjoying life. Life is going quite well for the kid. I'm smiling a lot more these days. I'm dealing with the demons, fighting the negativity that always seems to linger near by. Remember the part of "A Beautiful Mind" where Dr. Nash sees his friend and his daughter, and keeps walking? The little girl talks to him, and he acknowledges
that she is there, but he doesn't respond to her. He keeps walking, understanding that she will always be there with him, a part of his mind, but that he has to keep moving because he has his life to live. He didn't try to deny her existence, he just kept moving.

For so long I have been trying to hide what has gone on with me. Ashamed of my life. Not wanting people to pity me. Not wanting people to treat me differently. None of that matters anymore.

"If I had to do it all again, I wouldn't take away the rain, because I know it made me who I am..."

So many things said about me. So many people not knowing me. So many people creating a persona FOR me. So many people wondering, guessing, surmising, postulating, imagining, wishing, hoping. Yet know nothing.

"They say what's happening, we say the facts, and then they lie...they say, but they don't know... They say...they say...they don't know"

They say I use men. I'm only out to get something quick, and move on. They say I'm a conceited bitch. They say I think I am all that. They say I look down at people. They say I'm ugly. They say I have a "history" with men. They say I'm a Black Widow. They say I've made my way through so many people. They say I'm full of shit. They say I'm a liar. They say I start drama. They say I'm a troublemaker. They say I'm self-centered.

I recently spoke with a couple of good friends of mine, both male, who put me on to a lot of things. Funny how far some people will go. Not that I had no idea what things people were saying about me. I am just always amazed at how far people go. If they only knew. Some of the things I hear, I WISH I rolled like that. I WISH I had the eventful life they think I do. I really don't. I used to think, "If more
people took the time to get to know me, the REAL me, they would never think the things they think". Now, I simply don't care. Fuck em. Now I have it in me to push buttons, hurt feelings, and keep it moving. I won't give into that though, because I am above such nonsense. One day, when someone embarasses them and tells them to shut the fuck up because they know NOTHING, they will realize, they had me incorrectly pegged.

Another friend said "You love being the center of attention; you crave it"

I realized, with that statement, that my "friend" doesn't know me. That is unfortunate. But maybe this is what he sees. Maybe this is what I show HIM, because deep inside I do not trust him any further than I could throw him. Or maybe he listens a little bit too much to people who don't know me. He has been known to take untrue words of others over those of his closest friends. Either way, I could either try and prove him wrong by allowing him more access to my thoughts and my private life or I could just move further away from him, as I have been doing over the past few months, and keep it moving. I'm thinking I'm going to go with the latter. It's so much easier. He doesn't WANT to know me. I know this. And, I wish I cared more, but I don't. For a while, I was somewhat bothered by how easily and the ways in which I dismiss people. Nowadays, I'm not. It is so much easier to just be like fuck it, whatever, than to say "hey cmon, pay attention to me".

A friend read my blog as asked why I didnt include one particular dream job in my list of top 5 dream jobs. I said because there is so much about me I tell no one. Or maybe only one other person. This stuff, nowadays, is fluff. Surface stuff. Stuff used to be deep, but is no more. I'm still not all that comfortable sharing my inner-most thoughts and dreams with people. The person I am most comfortable talking to is myself.

Carrying on...

I'm happy. I was on the phone with the Caramel Sundae last night, and ended up crying. I was crying because I am so happy. Finally. I am happy. I've unhooked the shackles that I have been dragging around for so long, and I am happy.

Thank you, God. You know what for.

High Five

Danjaruz Demeanor:


Daily Danjaruz Deliberation:
"These are a few of my favorite things..."

Danjaruz Disclosures, Declarations, and Diatribes:

In the spirit of High Fidelity, a really great movie that a friend of mine bought for me, I have compiled a few Top 5 Lists of my own.

High Fidelity stars John Cusack as a disgruntled, jaded record store owner who is trying to understand what has gone wrong in his relationships with women. This time of reflection is brought on by his current live-in girlfriend moving out. He reviews his top 5 worst break ups of all time. The movie co-stars Jack Black (one of the funniest physical comedians of our time), who is a die hard rocker guy, determined to make music-buying as hard as possible for anyone who actually comes intot he store. Along with Dick, played wonderfully by Todd Louiso, these guys spend their days impressing their musical elitism upon the music peons that come in the store.


Louis: Now why would you sell it to me and not to him
Barry: Because you're not a geek, Lewis
Louis: You guys are snobs
Barry: No we're not
Louis: No, seriously, you're totally elitists. You feel like the unappreciated scholars soyou shit on the people who know less than you
All 3: Nawww
Louis: Which is everybody...
All 3: Yesss

Top Five Most Fucked Up Situations/Interactions With The Opposite Sex(he used "Break Ups" in the Movie, but I've only had one real "break-up")
1. All of the times I was forced to have sex, coerced into sex, or laid there while a man performed some sexual act on me.
2. This dude took a shit in my bowl and clogged it up, but didnt tell me and I didnt find out until he left. Not a word, nothing. Covert shitting all up in my crib.
3. Finding out this dude I'd been seeing was married. He had a seperate apartment that he maintained to do his cheating, so me having the home number, going to his home, etc. didn't tip me off. I didn't find out until his wife called me on my cell phone calling me all kinds of bitch, asking where her husband was (as in what city, state). I was like wait a minute u dumb fuck, I didnt know ya man was married, so don't call me a bitch. You are the dumb fuck for not knowing your husband maintains a completely seperate home for his affairs. Didn't she wonder where he went those times? What wife lets her man travel out of state without knowing where he is going and what he is doing?
4. Any phone call received from the "wife" "wifey" "girlfriend" or "babymama" that I never knew existed.
5. Finding out that one of the most popular brothas on the football team, and in school, was a two-minute brotha.

Top Five Recording Artists of All Time
1. Prince [the king of all that is music]
2. Stevie Wonder [one of the best songwriters]
3. Michael Jackson [can't deny his musical success and influence]
4. Whitney Houston [hard to think of a more pure voice being recorded]
5. Mariah Carey [over 150 million records sold, 4.5 octave range, give credit when it is due]

Top Five Records to Play on A Monday Morning
1. "Count The Days"- Prince
2. "Fight The Power"- Public Enemy
3. "Payback"- James Brown
4. "Manic Monday"- Bangles [written by Prince]
5. "Lovely Day"- Bill Withers

Top Five Favortie Books of All Time
1. Go Tell It On The Mountain- James Baldwin
2. Go Down, Moses- William Faulkner
3. Black Noise- Tricia Rose [hip hop Bible]
4. The Color Purple- Alice Walker
5. Black Macho and The Myth of the Superwoman- Michelle Wallace

Top Five Musical Crimes Perpetrated By Stevie Wonder In the 80s and 90s
1. "I Just Called To Say I Love You"
2. "I Ain't Gonna Stand For It" [from Hotter Than July]
3. "Go Home" [from In A Square Circle]
4. "Skeletons" [from Characters]
5. "Jungle Fever" [from Jungle Fever Sdtk.]

Top Five Side Ones, Track Ones
1. "1999"- Prince, "1999"
2. "Break On Through"-The Doors, "The Doors"
3. "Don't Stop Til You Get Enough"- Michael Jackson, "Off The Wall"
4. "Please Don't Go"-Boyz II Men, "Cooleyhighharmony"
5. "Like A Prayer"- Madonna, "Like A Prayer"

Top Five Original Songs From a Movie Soundtrack [made for, or inspired by the movie, excluding musicals made into movies i.e. Jesus Christ Superstar]
1. "Purple Rain"-Prince [Purple Rain]
1. "The Beautiful Ones"- Prince [Purple Rain]
2. "Open"-Brandy [Osmosis Jones]
3. "Freedom"- Various Artists [Panther]
4. "When You Believe"- as performed by Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston [Prince of Egypt]
5. "Fame"- Irene Cara [Fame]

Top Five Dream Jobs
1. World-famous author
2. Elementary school teacher
3. Homemaker
4. Plus-sized super model
5. President/Queen of a small country

Top Five Things I Miss About My Ex
1. Nothing
2. Nothing
3. Nothing
4. Nothing
5. His parents

Top Five Songs About Death
1. "Another Lonely Christmas"- Prince
2. "The Death of Emmett Till"- Bob Dylan
3. "Tears In Heaven"-Eric Clapton
4. "Behind The Wall"- Tracey Chapman
5. "Death Wish"- Kool G. Rap & DJ Polo

Top Five Songs To Be Played At My Funeral
1. "The Most Beautiful Girl In The World"- Prince
2. "Troubles Of The World"- Mahalia Jackson
3. "One Sweet Day"-Mariah Carey & Boyz II Men
4. "Another One Bites The Dust"- Queen
5. "Electric Relaxtion"- A Tribe Called Quest

All Time Top Five Favorite Records
1. "Adore"-Prince
2. "Visions"- Stevie Wonder
3. "Love Takes Time"-Mariah Carey
4. "Buddy (Remix)"- Native Tongues
5. "Live To Tell"- Madonna